Getting that nauseous feeling again. … my dreams are even a clear indication that there is something completely unsettled in the hidden spaces of my mind. Does she even know I exist? What will the day be like when I can shake her hand and introduce myself. Will I feel pitty or want to punch her? Ugh….these thoughts kill me
Every so often I meet a guy and all of a sudden my brain seems to short circuit - for a brief period of time I think he genuinely likes me and that maybe something great will develop. Never fear - the short circuit is always temporary. …they always turn out to be douchebags and I fall back down from cloud 9 simply to be reminded why I should keep my heart locked away safe and sound. I need to just stop trying.